10 DAYS until I hit the stage, wahoo!!!

Well the time has almost come, it doesn't feel like it was yesterday, it hasn't flown by, each week has had a set of lessons and I am thankful that I have been able to learn more about myself but most importantly, I have drawn immensely closer to my Savior Jesus Christ. 

There have been some dark days over the last 16 weeks where I felt anxious, depressed, shameful and full of guilt.  I have had negative thoughts knock around inside my head about why I shouldn't do this show, thoughts such as "I'm not ready," "_________ doesn't think you're ready," "Man, you screwed up eating that meal,"  "You only got 3 hours of sleep last night, your training isn't going to be strong enough."  Do you see the common bond to these statements? My negative thought was I am not good enough.  But do you know who thinks I am already good enough? God.  In fact, He thinks I am precious, unique, a masterpiece! Really? Me? A masterpiece? Yep, even without all the workouts and dieting, I am His creation and along with that, I am accepted, I am forgiven, and that is more than enough for me.

I am waiting to hear from my coach Paul Revelia what the final plan is for the next week.  I know the kids are excited for me to complete this goal so that I can return to a somewhat "normal" way of eating, they know Mommy eats healthy year round, but soon I can have a taste of what they are eating and we can share desserts or treats from time to time.  I will update as I draw closer to the show.  Stay tuned......